I’m just going to throw this real thought I’ve been having into to blogging community, because most every time I throw this out people are right there with me. It makes me feel not as lonely (yes, it’s all about me).
I read all of these blogs about people’s lives changing and moving in very big ways: new kid, new marriage, new life. It’s like there’s this prerequisite for blogging that I missed, “you must have something interesting, almost to the point of captivating going on...or else.”
My life doesn’t include that at the moment. I’m changing, I’m moving, but not in the ways I would have ever predicted, and surely in ways I cannot describe via blog. In fact, some of the changing comes in the form of backtracking (I don’t want to go into it...it’s embarrassing).
I guess I just want to put this on the table: We choose our lives, and we don’t choose our lives. Maybe we choose our reactions but not the circumstances. We choose trust or we choose anger. I have to ask myself what I will choose everyday. And I have a choice to be grateful for the subtle, discrete, real changes or I can be the “grass is greener” girl.
I don’t want to be the “grass is greener” girl.
I read all of these blogs about people’s lives changing and moving in very big ways: new kid, new marriage, new life. It’s like there’s this prerequisite for blogging that I missed, “you must have something interesting, almost to the point of captivating going on...or else.”
My life doesn’t include that at the moment. I’m changing, I’m moving, but not in the ways I would have ever predicted, and surely in ways I cannot describe via blog. In fact, some of the changing comes in the form of backtracking (I don’t want to go into it...it’s embarrassing).
I guess I just want to put this on the table: We choose our lives, and we don’t choose our lives. Maybe we choose our reactions but not the circumstances. We choose trust or we choose anger. I have to ask myself what I will choose everyday. And I have a choice to be grateful for the subtle, discrete, real changes or I can be the “grass is greener” girl.
I don’t want to be the “grass is greener” girl.
6 Comments:
you are not the 'grass is greener' girl. you are the person that chooses adventure, friendship and joy OVER settling, anger or distance.
i can't wait to see you
It is normal to be striving for change. This isn't always a good thing, in fact a very bad thing, if the source of the striving is an attempt to appease people, or please them out of fear. Fear of loneliness, abandonment, etc. . . There is a proper season for changes, the key is to be about the work that your season places you, however frustrating it may be at the moment. If we spent more of our days resting in our identities in Christ, aware of His power, relying on His power, we indeed will change. It won't be in response to fear but in response to true strength. Otherwise we are weak, and incapable of a single good thing.
I have had the urge to sit and talk with you lately and now after reading that, I really want to just sit and talk with you. Miss you.
erika, thanks for the real thoughts! i'm so glad you blog!
I think we all feel the "grass is greener" at times. When you're young, you want to be grown up; when you're single, you want to be in a relationship; when you're engaged, you want to be married; when you're married, you want to have kids. I think a lot of what we "want" stems from what we feel like is normal. We all move through life at our own pace and we all have a different journey through life. You are a fabulous person and I know that there are great things in store for you!
I agree, we all feel that way sometimes...most of the time...it's always something, ya know. But you're right. It is a choice we all make, everyday. How we want to react to the situations that present themselves to us.
By the way, that is pretty funny about the pies! :)
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